Anurag Kashyap was up all night after his film Akira hit the screens.

The Gangs of Wasseypur director was flooded with so many complimentary messages that he stayed awake till 5:30 am!

But he chose not to read the messages.

“I don’t read them because I get too conscious,” he reveals.

In fact, he doesn’t even read and watch his interviews because he doesn’t want to alter the way he is and become conscious about what he has to say.

Anurag claims he just followed the script for his negative role in Akira.

“When I am an actor, I want to be the actor that I want on my set, who believes and trusts the director,” he says.

He admits that he finds it strange to watch and hear himself as an actor.

“I was like ‘I have such a deep voice’. Had I known this before, I could have gone on so many dates,” he says with a laugh. “You don’t realise this about yourself, everything seems fake.”

While Anurag doesn’t plan to act anytime soon, he has a lot going on as a filmmaker. He tellsJahnavi Patel/ Rediff.com what’s next on the cards, his Akira experience and the scarsBombay Velvet has left on him.

Your acting in Akira has got a lot of critical acclaim. Were you expecting such a response?

No, I was not. I am a director, I can’t watch myself in an interview, forget in a movie.

I look at myself and I wonder why would I want to cast myself anywhere.

It’s like you find your voice strange. You hear yourself talking and it feels so weird.

SPOILER ALERT!

Has your daughter watched the film?

When I told her let’s go and watch the film, she first asked me if I would die in the film. I said, ‘Maybe.’

She asked me for a definite answer and I said, ‘Yes.’

She did not want to watch the film.

She feel the same thing as me. She finds it weird to see me act on screen.

Karan Johar had said that when a director debuts as an actor, it is more of a responsibility because people have already judged you as a director.

Yes, it is a responsibility.

My biggest worry was that if anything goes wrong with Akira, people will say, ‘Accha-khaasaMurugadoss (AR Murugadoss, director) hit films banata tha, Anurag ne usko bhi dubaa diya.’ (laughs)

That happens every time something goes wrong.

As a director, I am happy to take the blame because that’s mine but I get blamed for everything.

How is AR Murugadoss as a director?

He is an amazing guy and an amazing story teller. He has so much clarity and conviction.

He is clear about catering to an audience. He says that I am not going to sit and make a film to please a person with an opinion of what he expects.

I love him.

In an interview, he said that he likes to make films with a realistic backdrop but a commercial element.

Regional cinema is more rooted in India than Hindi cinema.

The people, who are rooted, have their way of story telling, which is also rooted. That’s why a lot of South Indian filmmakers work well in Hindi. Their cinema is rooted in middle class and rural. They understand the masses well because they have come from there.

So they will always be successful.

My audience is very niche. I am far too educated for my own good.

I find it very difficult to simplify it which he (AR Murugadoss) does easily.

With my movies, I feel what more can I do to make the audience understand but still, they don’t understand.

With Raman Raghav 2.0, I tried to make the audience understand everything — there were long scenes, many dialogues, Nawazuddin Siddiqui sits and gives a speech but still, people did not understand.

Do you think audiences have become more accepting to different kinds of cinema?

There are all kinds of audiences. Eventually, I also have an audience.

It’s just unfortunate that my audience is a Torrents audience. (laughs)

As a director, you’re known for making unconventional films. Was it a conscious decision to do commercial films as an actor?

No, I have no ambition as an actor. You saw what I did in Happy New Year.

So how did acting happen?

Sometimes it’s an emotional reason, sometimes some other reason.

In Happy New Year, Farah Khan misused me and apne pyaar mein phasa liya. Farah Khanne Vishal Dadlani aur mujhe jhaasa diya aur lapet liya biryani khila khila ke.

She fed us biryani for three Eids and said now at least do the roles, so we did it.

[source;rediff.com]